The Peculiar Pursuit

It’s not everyday that it’s your birthday. But by the time you read this, I will have turned 28.

I can no longer say I’m in my mid-twenties.

I’m officially a late-twenties girl.

Somehow I thought I’d be further along in life—but I think we all do.

But the truth is any drama or comedy tv show I watch usually stars a main character who is my age. I get the jokes. I cringe when it’s awful usually because I relate.

But if you were to ask me at 18 what I would be pursuing in 10 years and what my life would be like I’d probably say: “I’m in love, married, pregnant with my second or third kid and loving it!”

Boy—time and experience changes things.

At 18 I had already convinced myself that my life wouldn’t begin until I was worth marrying or had my own kids.

But the truth is— my pursuit today, as a 28 year old is a peculiar one.

I would love to get married… to the right person. But I’m not going to settle for the wrong one just so I’m not alone. I would love to have children… if it’s meant for me and when it’s time to have them.

But if those things never come, I’m not any less blessed. I’m simply blessed differently. And that’s enough.

My peculiar pursuit right now is simple: living, and living well. Specifically, in the present with people that help me to chisel away the parts of me that were jaded by the lies that come from living life.

It means saying “no” to things that cause me to affirm lies I’ve been told, and saying “yes” to things that are uncomfortable in the moment but are life-giving in the long run.

My peculiar pursuit looks like learning, growing, reflecting, discerning and simply— living without jealousy of other peoples journeys.

Because for the first time, I can say I’m deliberately and intentionally joyful. Not because I’m where I want to be— but because I’m excited with where I’m going and who I’ve got in my corner as I put one foot in front of the other.

And that’s enough.

For once in my life— I’m content with “enough”.